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(no subject) [Feb. 24th, 2006|11:17 pm]
so today has been pretty interesting..in a bad way..

first i find out my back pack is stolen out of my car for some unglodly reason..and why someone would want a back pack...i dunno, but i lost some books and things like that, nothing expenive or valuable, but that really lame.. and makes me not trust this place im living.

and then about 10:00 my dad calls me and asks if i can drive over and help out cause we have a problem, and its with the camper, and apperently people broke into our camper, and decided they wanted to live in there, sleeping, cooking, restroom, everything, and my dad went over ther today for some reason, and relizes all this crap, and he files a reprt..

so there's 2 reasons of not trusting this place..

..whats next..
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(no subject) [Oct. 18th, 2005|09:22 pm]
knotts scarry farm this weekend, on saturday, it goes from 7pm - 2 am im going with my dad my sis and my dads girlfriend, and possibly andy, so i need people to help steal me away so i dont haveto be stuck with my dad all night, i think the price is about 40 bucks so ya know and ya if you feel like going, and your rents will let you and give you some money for it tell me or gimme a call, 426-4103(apartment) and 304-7831 (cell)

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(no subject) [Oct. 17th, 2005|06:33 pm]
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your MySpace Blog and see what I say about you?
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(no subject) [Oct. 6th, 2005|10:29 pm]
[my funny little feeling |worriedworried]


i am in need of a cell phone, one thats laying around, no one using it, no plan or anything being paid and it just sits there

i put mine through a washer (stupid i no) and i didnt tell my dad..and well..he went out today to buy me a new phone card for 50 bucks and i dont want to put it to waste

so if anyone has one , t mobile would be nice so i dont have to un block it but any would be good.

if there is anyone out there, i would appreciate it very much

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My Car [Sep. 18th, 2005|07:00 pm]
[my funny little feeling |cheerfulcheerful]


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(no subject) [Sep. 16th, 2005|09:05 pm]
[my funny little feeling |bouncybouncy]

i got my car 2day!! im so happy, i'd post a picture of it...but well im livejournal retarded..and i dont no how to.., so if anyone wants to tell me, then maybe i can..

but ..I GOT MY CAR !!! :D
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(no subject) [Sep. 5th, 2005|09:31 pm]
1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
my answersCollapse )
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(no subject) [Sep. 4th, 2005|11:55 pm]
[my funny little feeling |bouncyI Bought a Car!]

i bought it!, i got my first car! i cant belive it AHH! i got it for 400, im so excited!!!
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(no subject) [Sep. 4th, 2005|11:25 am]
[my funny little feeling |ecstaticecstatic]
[the songs of a lifetime |Breaking Benjamin - sooner or later]


its gonna be an old crappy little car

a 93 ford escort..and it has 120 thousand miles, but hell im prolly gonna ghet it for 500 or less,its got new tires and new brakes, nad its a 5 gear stick shift, but , just wow im excited, my first car right after i turn 16, something i'll be putting my own money into. this makes me happy :) and my aunt cheryl whos 24 is gonna teach me drive a stick from her truck, i never relized how awesome she is until yesterday,

welp in a few hours im off to go look at it, see how it runs so on so forth, so wish me luck!
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(no subject) [Aug. 27th, 2005|03:03 am]
[my funny little feeling |happyhappy]

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday dear melissa
Happy Birthday to me

im finally 16 now, still one of the younger ones around, but hey, nothin i can change about that
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(no subject) [Aug. 25th, 2005|11:26 pm]
[my funny little feeling |amusedamused]

so its the 25th almost midnight, and my birthday is on the 27th, and i have not a single clue of what im doing for my 16th birthday, let alone what im getting since i havent even been able to tell my parents what i want...o well

oh ya, andy looks amazing with his braces off :)

and another thing i have a sshs throw away comp at my moms house now, so yay!...uh..kinda...ish..well maybe its not something to be proud of huh?lol
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(no subject) [Aug. 24th, 2005|12:19 pm]
English 11
Biology CP
Algebra 2
US History
Spanish 1
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(no subject) [Jul. 31st, 2005|10:37 pm]
[my funny little feeling |blankblank]

i need to relax..take a break from things, maybe this 2 week trip will help me..i hope it will
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(no subject) [Jul. 24th, 2005|04:52 pm]
[my funny little feeling |boredbored out of my fucking mind]

didnt have to good of a day today..

and apperenlty im going on a week long maybe 2 week long trip up the west coast..so it will just be me, april and my dad, and 5 of those day my gradma, and another few.karen, and her 2 little boys one of which who has a crush on me..im gonna hate this..
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(no subject) [Jun. 25th, 2005|11:42 am]
[my funny little feeling |boredbored]

well today is probably gona blow..its 12..and its summer..and im sitting here with absolutly nothinat all to do, i HAVE TO go vsit my great grandma ..and sit there.. and do jack shit, were leaving around 2 i think..and then should be back at six or so. hopefully i'll be able to do something then
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(no subject) [Jun. 4th, 2005|04:58 pm]
[my funny little feeling |productiveAAAHHHH!!! IM BORED!!!]

God this place is boring! I've been sitting here since 6:30 in the morning, and i have found absolutly nothing to do. Please some one save me from this boring place!
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(no subject) [May. 27th, 2005|04:34 pm]
[my funny little feeling |boredbored]

well this 3 day weekend it gonna be boring..lots of sitting on a computer, maybe do my first drivers training lesson

andy's working tonight till 9 or 10, then sat 12- 8 i think , then sunday same thing, and after work on sunday with ken till monday night

so i just sit, maybe i'll call madison, maybe go swimming, hang out or sutff, and maybe i'll hang out with drew for awhile one of these days if he's up to it.
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2005|05:31 pm]
[my funny little feeling |ecstaticecstatic]

i got my permit today!!

:) makes me happy
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(no subject) [Mar. 29th, 2005|12:16 am]
Fave Color:
Fav. Movie:
Fav. Band:
Most Embarassing Moment:
Are you a virgin:


Are we friends:
Do you have a crush on me:
Would you kiss me:
Have we kissed:
...with tongue:
Would you ever ask me out:
Would you make a move on me in a movie theater:
Would you hold me if I was crying:
Would you take care of me when I'm sick:
If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me:
Do you talk shit about me:
Have you talked shit about me:
Do you think I'm a good person:
Would you let me sleep with you:
Would you let me take you on a romantic walk on the beach and let me lay with you:
Do you think I'm hot:
Do you think I'm beautiful:
Do you think that I think your pretty:
Do you like my writing:
Do you like my art:
If you could change anything about me, would you:
If so, what:
Will you post this so I can fill it out for you:
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(no subject) [Mar. 27th, 2005|08:56 pm]
[my funny little feeling |curiouscurious]

apperantly some distant cousins are coming over for some geniology stuff the my dads granma cousins..so my great grandma's cousins from kansas are comin over here..i talked to one on the phone earlier today..there really nice

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. Don’t you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.

First, he lovingly licks the coconut until it lies flat in the same direction.Then he takes the outter marshmallow skin in his teeth so he can nibble at the sweet cake underneath. After a few seconds of anticipition , he worms his tongue into the center and sucks out the cream filling before gobbling the rest as fast as he can"
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(no subject) [Mar. 27th, 2005|07:41 pm]
[my funny little feeling |lovedI can't belive i found you]

i put up a post that wasnt good..so i took it off..if yo uread it..woopty doo for you..if you didnt odnt worry about it

anyways..i was suprised by caity's post..and andy's post just wowed me,

to andy: for the past week ive been moody and not as good as i should be too you, and even with me puttin that post, you defended me 100% i love you so much, i honestly dont know what i would do with out you, you treat me so well you would do anything for me.. and i just..i just love you so much i cant even tell you how much

to kyle: thanks for being nice about the post it helps alot

some reply's


liebedich4ever - "well I'll never be sorry for pushing my ways on you, i'll never be sorry for saying you and him are wrong, i'll never be sorry for telling you that you can do better, i'll never be sorry for hating you for killing your baby with that fucking pill, i'll never be sorry for saying that the way you go about your relationship is all wrong, i'll never be sorry for hating him, and i'll never feel sorry for you again."


bitter resentfulness is never the way to go
caring pity works much better, no matter the situation or what they think of what you say/do


First off, this has nothing to do with the subject, you're just looking for a reason to rant

Second, "well I'll never be sorry for pushing my ways on you" that is one of the stupidest things that you have ever said, they are exactly what you just said they are, Your Ways, not her's, she has her own ways, you always tell people, especially me how impressionable she is and that you think i am using that to my advantage to get what i want, when that is EXACTLY what you are trying to do, you are trying to use how impressionable you think she is to push YOUR ways upon her and make her think what YOU want her to think, to make her the way YOU want her to be, to protect her from the things that YOU think are bad

Well i got news for you dear, she has her own mind, she makes her own decisions, she does things her way, shes a real person and it's time for YOU to realize that, not anyone else, because your the one that doesn't truely look at her as her own person

As you've said before, you see her as a gullable person, easly pushed into doing things, easly talked into things without "protection". Well she doesn't need your protection anymore, shes can take care of herself, shes a big girl now, she doesn't need you to fight for her anymore, especially when there is nothing to fight

Third, Her and I are NOT wrong and never will be, no matter what you think or say, I Love Her, i love her more that you could ever fathom, i would do anything for her, i would die for her, she is my life, my love, my everything, and i will stand with her untill the end of eternity. You only think we are wrong because you don't know the true extent of our relationship, she it not only the love of my life, but also my best friend, i confide in her everything that i ever think, i tell her everything. I would NEVER be after "just sex", as you'ver said before, yes we have sex, and yes we may do it more than most, but that DOES NOT mean that it is the only thing that i want and the only thing that i care about, you do not know me, you know NOTHING about me, you know about the old me, you know about the me that i left behind a long time ago, and not much about him either. You do not know about ME, you know nothing of my intentions, you know nothing of my thoughts, my beliefs, my life. I will tell you, though i don't need to, i will tell you about my intentions, my intentions are pure, my intentions are true, not matter what you think, i intent to spend the rest of my life with Melissa, i intent to care for her and take care of her when needed throughout life, i intent to provide for her, i intent to stay with her, i intent to make and keep her happy, i intent to listen to her, i intent to give her all that i can give her, and most of all i intent to Love Her With All The Love Humanly Possible And More. So NEVER tell me MY intentions toward to the love of my life, you can tell me about Melissa and I just about as well as i can tell you about You and Tyler, i could make many assumptions about you two, i could say many things, but i don't, because i respect that you love him and that he loves you, so why in hell can't you just give up on your lost cause of stopping this and accept that i love and don't want to hurt her?

Fourthy, she probably could do better, i do not think that i am pefect in any way, shape, or form, nor do i say that i am, no one ever said that she had done the best that she could do, she is the most beautiful, nice, kind, caring, loving human being that i have ever had the grace to meet and she could probably find a rich, sucessful, nice guy to care and provide for her, but i can garentee you and will put my life on the FACT that she will NEVER find someone that loves her and wants to be with her more than i do, she will NEVER find someone that wants to spend the rest of their life and longer with her more than i do, she just won't, cause it is not possible in any way to feel greater that i do about her, no matter how hard anyone tries, no one can come close to fathoming the possibility of think about caring about her even 1/100000000 the amount i do.

Fifthly, she never killed a baby, she has never been pregent in any way, she has never had anything in her body close the being a child that she could have killed. There was never a baby to kill. You have no reason to hate her for that, because she didn't do anything, she was being cautious, i don't know what information you got, but i can tell you, knowing first hand, cause i dealt with it, that she was never pregent, she never had a child in any way, shape or form, and she never kill a child in any way, shape or form, she was being extra cautious, that is all.

Sixthly, the "way we go about our relationship" is not wrong at all, once again i think that you have not got all information on a sugject that you are objecting, yes, yes we do have sex, and we did do it quite a lot, a very lot in fact, but that it not all we did, we talked, we still do, we have always talked, and we always do, we talk all the time, about everything, if there is anything to talk about, we talk about it, but we also make love, there is nothing wrong with have sex with the person that you love, and having a healthy relationship otherwise, i don't give a crap what you have to say on the subject, we have a good healthy relationship, and no, contrary to what you belive i am not saying that because i am a sex loving pig that is happy with our relationship because as you so wonderfully think "i get all the sex i want", i am saying it beacuse it is true, we did have sex quite a bit, but NOT because i made her do it and tricked her into thinking that it is the right things to do, it is because we love each other and we both enjoy it, so don't ever think i make her do anything like trick her into having sex with me, because i have never "tricked" her into anything, ever, she always makes her own concious decisions.

Seventhy, She Doesn't Need You To Feel Sorry For Her

Finaly, i don't even know why i am ranting to you about all of this, because it know it won't help, no matter how much i show it, no matter how much i care, no matter what i say or do, there is nothing i can do to chance your narrow scope of thought on this subject, i can only hope that the truth will open your eyes and you will realize that it is all in fact true, and that i do in fact love her with every fiber of my being.

Thank You For Taking Your Time To Read This And Have A Good Day

Yours Truely
Andy Purcell

i love you andy, thank you for always being there for me, helping me with everything, and helping me become my own person, letting me make desions, never putting me down for any stupid things that i do, you helped me so much you will never know, you made my life complete you helped me stand on my own two feet again, and support me when i start to fall back down, or when i just need some one there to hold me threw rough times, you have given me everythign i need in life, and you keep giving it, thank you for always being there, you bring out the best me, i love you, I Love You, I LOVE YOU! and i cant say it enough, thank you so much
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wow, who woulda thought, me? good grades? [Mar. 14th, 2005|06:01 pm]
[my funny little feeling |calmcalm]

i got my progress report today, i have 3 a's and 3 b's ,
this is the best ive ever done in my entire life:)
if i keep this up till report cards and keep from getting d's and f's and as many a's possible, i get money , $50 for every A and i now get to work on getting my permit cuz of good grades:)so hopefully just a few monts after i turn 16 i'll have my lincense well ima go now, have fun with life

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i cant belive it [Feb. 21st, 2005|10:19 pm]
[my funny little feeling |gratefulGreatful]

went to pauls italian last night because damned ken of japan wasnt open, me and andy were gonna celebrate our 6month there, but so on and so forth,,we just went to pauls, it was yummy his dad offered to let just us two go, and he would treat it it was really nice

tonight his dad said we could also go to ken of japan and do the same thing just me and andy and him treat it, once again it was very nice, and we got to celebrate twice

tomarrow is me and andy's 6 month.

damn...6 months.. that makes me happy... 6months consistantly going out, and over a year with out a single fight, weather that beig a healthy relationship or not..id rather keep it with out fighting

you make me so happy, no words can explain i cant belive how far we have made it, how much both of us have changed, for what i choose to think is the better, you mean so much to me, i dont think you will every fully understand, but thank you for always being there with open arms and a caring heart when times where both good and bad for the both of us, i love you so much,

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everything is perfect when your around [Feb. 19th, 2005|08:44 pm]
[my funny little feeling |happyPerfect]

3 more days and its going to be 6 months consistantly!!!! I Love You So Much Andy!!!

*previous stuff*

valentines day was wonderful, all the days b4 that were great, all the days after that were great, everything is wonderful and perfect :D
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questiony thingy [Feb. 6th, 2005|09:16 pm]
[my funny little feeling |happyhappy]
[the songs of a lifetime |i want you -third eye blind]

Describe me in three words:
Do I annoy you sometimes?
If you could be anywhere with me where would it be??
What is one memory that we have shared that you will never forget?
Am I easy to get along with?
Name one bad quality of mine.
Name one good quality of mine.
Would you get into a fight to defend me?
How sweet am I to you on a scale from 1 to 10?
Have I ever made you cry?
Have you ever made me cry?
How often do you think about me?
Would you trust me with a secret?
Would you trust me with your life?
Am I funny or serious?

*opp sex* Have you ever been attracted to me?
Am I bright or shady?
Do you enjoy my company?
Would you be able to hang out with just me and still have a good time?
*opp. sex* Would you ever date me?
*opp. sex* Do you like me?
*opp. sex* What would you say if I asked you out?
*opp. sex* How far will you go with me?

Have you ever dreamed about me? If so, what was the most recent one about?
Dancer or singer?
Am I fun to be with at a party?
What movie makes you think of me (and don't say you
don't know)?
What song makes you think of me?
What show makes you think of me?
How far would you drive to see me?

Would you introduce me to any of your friends?
Who do you think is my perfect match?
When you hear my name what do you think of?
Do you think I will get married? To whom?
Any last comments about the person who sent this to you can go here:
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5 mths! [Jan. 22nd, 2005|09:59 am]
[my funny little feeling |lovedI Love You!!!]

weee! 5mths with andy i love you so much!
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why did I get sick? [Jan. 18th, 2005|10:27 am]
[my funny little feeling |sicksick]

so i went to school today..well kinda...for about half of the first period..and then i didnt feel 2 well, so i got a pass and i was heading up to the health office and what do you no..i do exactly what i thought i was..i puked.. so some lady person from the student store saw me and went to the health office and told people, and they brought me a wheel chair..why you need a wheel chair for puking...i honestly dont no, because my mom is taking care of my grandma, and my dad is at work , heather came and picked me up nd took me home..so now i get to sit here... fun..
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In Memory [Jan. 17th, 2005|09:43 pm]
[my funny little feeling |rejectedSad]
[the songs of a lifetime |...silence...]

At the age of 86, around 12,January 17th 2005, today the day my great grandpa halsey died from heart failure. i love you grandpa , i will always remember you in my heart, you lived a long and full filled life, and i hope you enjoyed it.

In Memory january 17 2005
my great grandpa halsey
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(no subject) [Jan. 3rd, 2005|09:14 pm]
[my funny little feeling |lovedI Love You!]

Have you ever:
• kissed someone: yup
• gotten drunk: yup
• worn rainbows:uh..i dont belive so , but prolly
• talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yup
• left the country:yup
• had a party with over 30 people: been to a party with over 30 people, never had one though,
• taken nude pictures: nope
• stolen something:ya..
• caught something on fire: ya
• cheated on someone: ish, holding hands count?
• wanted to cheat on someone: once again holding hands?
• asked someone out: yup
• had a dream, then the next day it happens: all the time

Last person:
• you touched: andy
• you talked to: april in person, caity online
• you hugged: andy
• you kissed: andy, duh!
• you instant messaged: normally people message me..
• who broke your heart: theres only one person who ever could break my heart, cuz ive never given anyone else a chance

Info about yourself:
• what is your birth name?melissa robin holmes
• what is your birthday?august 27 1989
• current age? 15
• do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yup yup :D
• how tall are you? 5'2-5'3 ish i guess
• shoe size?: 4-6 ish
brothers/sisters? 1 brothers, and 1 sisters
• job ? nope

In the last 48 hours:
• cried?: nope
• missed someone?: yup
• yelled at someone?: ish
• changed your underwear?: ya duh?
• drove somewhere?:yup
• been online?:i belive thats what im on right now..
• smiled?:yes
• had sex?: yes
• kissed someone?: yes
• hugged someone?: yes

Have you ever:
• been in trouble with the police?: prolly
• hit someone?: ya
• broke something?: ya
• betrayed a friend?: ya..
• played strip poker ?: nope
• skipped school?: ya, havent ditched tho
• shot a gun?: ya
• smoked weed?: nope
• dyed your hair?: nope
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(no subject) [Jan. 3rd, 2005|09:09 pm]
In the year of 2004 have you:
Cried? ya
Hugged someone? yup
Gotten into a fight? ya, not a fist fight or anything
Drank alcohol? ya..
Kissed someone on the cheek? yup
Got a kiss on the cheek? yup
Kissed someone on the lips? yup
Got a kiss on the lips? yup
Said bad words? yup
Fallen in love?you have no idea how much
Flirted? yup
Had sex? yup
Slept with a boy/girl? yup
Hit someone? yup
Cuddled withyup
Made out? yup
Laughed so hard that it hurt? yup
Cried so hard that it hurt? yup
Had someone tell you that they like you? yup
Been cheated on? yup
Been dumped? yup
Gone on a date? ish
Liked someone so much that it hurt? yup
Loved someone so much that it hurt? you have no clue

i love you andy!
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(no subject) [Jan. 3rd, 2005|09:06 pm]
[my funny little feeling |chipperhehe]

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Disown my dad.

Get your resolution here

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